Sunday, April 30, 2017
Yesterday was the last day of National Infertility Awareness Week. It was also the one year anniversary of the day we found out that our final pregnancy had ended and our dream of having another child was over.
I reflected that April, and particularly the end of April, tended to be a rough time for us, at least since we started trying to have a child. We’d been doing fertility treatments pretty constantly for the last few years, and had more than a few unpleasant events, so it’s not surprising that our Aprils included some bad news. Of course they were not all bad, but did tend to be, well, kinda bad….
· On this day April 2009 – We had just started TTC, and I was very newly pregnant but did not know it. A few weeks later I would Google “ectopic pregnancy” for the first, but not last, time.
· On this day April 2010 – I was cleared to try getting pregnant again, and was in the process of measuring my basil body temperature, doing acupuncture, and taking lots of failed pregnancy tests. After a miscarriage at the beginning of 2010, I would start seeing a fertility doctor in September.
· On this day April 2011 – I was in the midst of my first IVF stim cycle, with a transfer in May.
· On this day April 2012 – I was hanging out with my new baby.
· On this day April 2013 – I was hanging out with my 1yo baby.
· On this day April 2014 – I was at the end of the 2WW of my second IVF cycle. I would end up pregnant, but there would be no heartbeat at the 6 week appointment.
· On this day April 2015 – We were 14 weeks pregnant, but would find out a couple weeks later our baby had anencephaly.
· On this day April 2016 – 1 year ago yesterday, after heartbreaking 12w appointment where we found out our little one was very, very sick, we found out she had passed away. With her died my dream of having a second child.
Fortunately, the cessation of fertility treatments/pregnancy attempts appears to have given us a reprieve and, I am happy to report, we had a lovely month and particularly nice day yesterday.